排行第三的姊妹,
Third sister,
寄明信片時遺漏的姨母。
aunt one forgets to send a card to.
替補席上的男孩,倒數第二個矮小,
Boy on a bench, second smallest,
不夠快,不夠准確,不夠機靈。
not quick, not precise, not cunning.
淘汰的雞仔,枝條刮傷的桃子,
Culled chick, branch-bruised peach,
鬆散的椅子,沒用了,擺在角落。
chair wobbly, unused, set in a corner.
有時候,未被選中
For some, almost good, almost lucky
稱得上好事,稱得上幸運,
not to be chosen,
儘管機會均等——
though equally accidental—
埋了三十年的地雷
the thirty-year-buried land mine
選中了別人的腿。
chooses the leg of another.
(嘴巴猶豫著
(How the mouth struggles
說出:幸運,還好。)
to say it: lucky, good.)
多數未被選中,多數眼睜睜看著。
Most are not chosen, most mostly watch.
只能如此。
So it must be.
被觀看者
The watched
(免不了驕傲,但並不真的在意)
(not escaping pride, not truly minding)
抱怨他們的責任,
bemoan their responsibilities,
太多焦慮,要求,太複雜。
so many anxieties, demands, complications.
不管怎樣:每隻兔子
And still: any rabbit the center
都以兔子世界的為中心,
of its own rabbit world,
牠的宇宙中軸是一窩踩實的草。
its universe axis a nest of tamped-down grasses.
牠用與地面齊平的眼睛眺望,
It looks out its ground-level eyes,
溫暖,好奇,飢腸轆轆,
is warm, is curious, hungry,
心跳快慢
its heart beats faster or slower
取決於個別兔子的命運。
with its own rabbit fate.
兔子的心靈別無旁顧
A rabbit’s soul cannot help
只會遵從自己的耳朵,自己的爪子,
but choose its own ears, its own paws,
自己的驚愕,睏意,渴望,
its own startlement, sleepiness, longings,
牠擁有一隻兔子的忠誠,
it has a rabbit allegiance,
和粉紅的鼻頭——
and the pink nose, which
本可能被丟勒的妹妹
could have been drawn in charcoal
用炭筆描繪,但那並未發生,
by Dürer’s sister, but wasn’t,
牠吸入自己的體溫和毛皮氣味,
takes in its own warmth and fur-scent,
粉紅地閃爍,
glints pinkly,
粉紅地,改變著遠處的星光
pinkly alters the distant star’s light
在遼闊、緘默的世界上
in its own cuniculan corner
安於兔子的一隅,
among vast and unanswerable worlds,
對此渾然不覺。
without even knowing it does so.