To New York

A grumpy lover, an angry mentor

as impatient as a delayed subway train

as cruel as the most unexpected, rain

I swear to God that is why I keep coming

back to you

for the right amount of meanness

for your disapproval, once again

it’s sobering me and making me realize

how pain is so connected to our, happiness

how I tried to please you as I please a, Daddy

yet again, I have to leave you

cause you’re bad, bad, bad

bad for me