ONE

一

for now, I can’t go back to last year

暂时，我还不能回到去年

I can’t go back to that evening of drinks

不能回到和某人以及另一个某人

with somebody and somebody else, I miss it, June’s 

喝酒的晚上，我想，六月

witching hour, youth wet with sweat

妖娆的时节，汗水打湿的少年

from Dongzhimen to Xidan, a few simple place-names 

从东直门到西单，一些简单的地名

that won’t even amount to a symbol, anguish 

甚至不能构成一种象征，还没有

yet to be broached, decadence there is no longer time for

触碰到的痛楚，和没有来得及的腐朽生活

suddenly I am soaked in rain

忽然被一些雨水淋到了

inkblots on the skin’s surface 

皮肤最表层的点状晕染片

dispersing, molten, an effusion of lyric

散开，融化了，泛滥了的抒情

from the South to the North, I met more strangers than ever before 

从南到北，我遭遇到一生中最多的陌生人

strange fingers ran over the strangest person

陌生化的手指抚摩了最陌生的人

night lit by morning, the dark at last became

被晨光照亮的夜晚，黑暗终于变得

clear, at last, the closest I’ve been to the dark

清晰，终于还没有这样接近过黑暗

TWO

二

some year, exactly which

I can’t say

某一年，具体的年份

those involved, the events and their protagonists 

不便说明

it is not for me, a now

具体的人物，任何事件以及主人翁

ruthless woman, to describe

都不便由我，此刻

the ruthless seasons

一个残忍的女人，来说明

have flooded my years in the world

残忍的季节

充斥着我的岁月

within the mud of a second

someone with only a second to spare 

在浑浊的一个瞬间

can only be a woman

一个只剩下瞬间的人

只能是女人

he, or is it they,

cry, or is it only a garden in the middle of a roundabout

他，或者是他们

落泪，或者仅仅是一个街心花园

the woman telling stories in the lamppost light is 

approximately, genuinely, not at all

路灯光下诉说的女人

大概，真的，并不是

me, using made-up words and phrases 

to express, to toast, to say

我，用更虚构的句子以及词语

let’s drink, and so she drinks

表达，举杯，说

I pass her a cigarette

喝酒，她于是喝下了酒

and so she smokes, when my merciless tears

我递一支烟

于是吸烟，我残酷的泪水

slide down like a man’s

maybe he’ll tap me on the back 

像男人那样滑落的时候

(sexy, subtle, smooth)

他，或许会拍打我的背脊

（性感的，微妙的，光滑的）

bitterly spitting out secrets

some simple

辛酸的，倾吐一些秘密

youthful sentiments

一些简单的

and those things inside ambiguity

少年的伤感

而那些在模棱两可中

that collide can

be named love

碰撞的，可以

dramatized transformations that fall

命名为爱情

戏剧化的转变，忽然间

all of a sudden, caught off guard 

掉下来，猝不及防

unfolding, unfolding... until

展开，展开……直到

they open up, bit by bit, raining down 

一点一点翻开，数落

countless loves seen dancing in the sky 

看见无数的爱情在天空飞舞

you can’t not sing, not go with it

不得不歌唱，不得不随之

and if there is nothing left to say

即使，也不能再说什么

remain silent, maybe this is the way,

再继续沉默，或者就是这样

like this, dancing, as though commanded

这样，飞舞着，如同命令

or named

或者，一个命名