mirror

I'm sorry for the superficial lover that I used to be 

I never truly fell for the real identity of any of your human form

i merely fell for your eyes 

your eyebrows

your cheek

your mustache

even though already shaven by you

remains a shadow

only not your soul to whom i love

maybe not even your mind

just your body

your filthy hand and words

your elongated torso

maybe you realized it ahead of me

you withdraw, disappointed, disappeared

just to look at me in the eye, to kiss me on the cheek

can have the catastrophe power to

ruin you

remind you the worst possible way of yourself

the shaking hands, aching heart, a sense of fear

for i could bring the worst of you

you tried ever so hard

to look up the expectations

that moment i realize we were identical

a pair of frightened kids

like two mirror reflections

each dimmer than the last one

then i realized this 

i thought i was in love with you

the truth is that i merely in love with my own reflection

you were only that empty shell of mirror