在我找到自己之前，

before I find myself,

独自在派对上

alone at the party

独自在杂货店里

alone at the grocery store

独自在餐厅桌前

alone at the restaurant table

一人一席，又像是还有个人

party of one party of someone

在家里等我，但

waiting for me at home but

那个人是邮件

that someone is the email

它找到我时，我刚洗完澡，一丝不挂

finding me naked after a shower

不是那种性感的

and not in that sexy way you

你可能在我淋浴后找到我的方式

might find me after a shower

而是那种毫不性感的方式

in that not sexy way

我的身体还太湿

where my body is still too wet

穿不上衣服，我必须

for my clothes and I must

和物理定律搏斗，把自己塞进去

fight physics to encase myself

像一根香肠挤进运动服里

like a sausage into a sweat suit

它会裹住我一会儿

that will hold me for a moment

但不像邮件那样

but not the way the email does

它找到我时，我甚至更加

when it finds me even more

破碎，站在镜子前

broken in front of a mirror

做着一些会招来所有人

doing things that will bring judgement

评判的事，当然

from everyone but of course

邮件不会，它只想

not the email, who wants only

找到在一片森林里瑟瑟发抖的我

to find me shivering in a forest

俯身蹲在一具

crouching over the body

刚刚被斩首的爱人的尸体旁

of a recently decapitated lover

邮件想让我知道

the email wants me to know

一切都会好起来，会

it will be alright, that it will be

不只是好起来

more than alright

终有一天，我会

that eventually I will

不再逃下去，会把

stop running and tell

邮件一直想知道的一切

the email all that it wanted

都告诉它，是的，

to know that yes,

我很好，是的

I am well and yes

如我上一封邮件所述

per my last email

我还在呼吸。

I am still breathing.