我想要 你 看着我，鲜活地

I want you to see me, fresh

在阳光

轻快颤动的地方，我想让你诉说那些你拒绝对我吐露的尖锐秘密，我想让你对我的肝肠浅吟低唱。

where the sun

shivers quick, I want you to relay the sharp secrets you refuse to tell me and I want you to speak songs to my stomach.

我曾极端地渴望你，床铺痛苦翻滚，为了一个从未在我的空间里安寝的幽灵。

I wanted you, terribly, and the bed revolts and aches from a ghost that has never slept in my spaces.

如今，我仍然疯狂地想念你，虽然你的影像降级为方形的屏幕、破碎的残片和闪烁的欲念，哦，bello，我想知道是什么灌满了你那广阔而又善变的脑海。

I miss you terribly, though, images of you are relegated to square-shaped screens, filmic pieces, and little flicks of wanting, oh bello, I want to know what fulls in your vast and capacious mind.

对不起，我不懂得如何正确地沉沦。我不知道该如何压抑那盛开、恐惧且等待着的欲望，但是宝贝，如果队伍太长，我无法排队等你，尽管在梦里，我会的。

I’m sorry, I don’t sin right. I don’t know how to push down the desire that blooms and fears and waits, but baby I can’t wait in line for you if it’s a long one, though in dreams, I would.

因为这就是我的感受。它太庞大、太邪恶、太沉重、太吞噬一切、太令人崩溃、太循环往复，而且 求你 求你 求你 求你

不要温柔地， 无视我。

Because that’s how I feel. It’s too big and too wicked and too heavy and too engulfing and too flattening and too repetitive and please please please please

我极度害怕我会穿过你的那扇门，却看到你站着另一端，

don’t ignore me, gently.

带着黑色的胡茬咧嘴笑着，而我将会永恒地渴望你，我害怕我会深陷于你那

巨大而荣耀的荆棘之中，而也许真正的问题是，这一切早就已经发生了。

I’m terrified I’ll walk through your door and see you on the other end,

grinning with dark beard and I’ll want you por siempre and I’m afraid I’ll be stuck with your

enormous, glorious thorn and maybe the problem is that has already happened.