from “Matter, Shape, & Spirit”, a response
我承認我因為缺乏普救的定義
to Tao Yuan Ming’s three part poem of the same title
而自詡詡欣喜,近乎超然之有力
絕對的自由,零羈絆,且透明無所
I confess I’m fully content
不在,永遠比爾等輕若山谷飄泊
with no grand plan of the universe,
吹過的風,比子夜潮音自古昔
free, unfettered, invisible
傳來,比夢──更渺茫
and everywhere. Like wind that flows
訴諸想像,我承認我永遠先走一步
down a valley, I’m lighter than the world,
以慧黠掩飾羞澀的表情
farther than the tidal hush of midnight,
曾經屬於我的
gauzier than dream. I trust imagination
惟有當寂寞也變成完全屬於我
to stay one step ahead, my cleverness
的時候,當四冥八荒充滿了宇宙勢必
veiling my shyness. What I owned
沉淪的異象,我站在雷雨初歇的野地
were only those moments
嘗試解說一些重複的徵兆
of solitude, wholly possessed.
為你,以約定的程式
Everywhere portents herald doom
直探依稀多情的心,堅持摧折
as rain follows thunder,
當無邊的寂寞證明完全屬於我
while here in the wilderness
也只有流落人生歧路上的你
I strive as promised to uncode the omens,
和你,是我惟一的不捨
to plumb your heart, my husk,
through such troubles.
At this crossroads
in a waste of isolation,
you’re all I can claim.