The day I learned to speak

學會說話的第一天

my parents rejoiced I wasn’t mute,

我的父母慶幸我不是啞巴

but who knows what I ate.

可我是吃什麼長大的

Nights, silkworms grazed mulberry leaves,

蠶兒在夜裏吃桑葉，我的心

my heart through the hours of

在寅時吃下什麼

Yin

才吐出陽光下的第一縷絲

browsing what it could.

At dawn I spit my first silk threads.

我開口說話——

混沌裂開的疼痛永遠留在記憶中

Through the pain of the torn primordial,

神性的沉默再也回不到嘴唇上：

I opened my mouth,

說，拼命說……

divine silence fleeing my lips forever:

沒有別的辦法驅趕恐懼

saying, desperately saying.

How else to drive back fear.

滔滔不絕的話語

帶著憤怒，拋向廉價的耳朵

Wrath spills out with eloquence,

滔滔不絕的話語

splashed toward common ears,

帶著歎息，落向空無——

sigh-sleek words

在所有的聽眾後面，我尋找

slipping toward emptiness.

那唯一的聽眾……

Among all who listen

I speak to only one.