學會說話的第一天

The day I learned to speak

我的父母慶幸我不是啞巴

my parents rejoiced I wasn’t mute,

可我是吃什麼長大的

but who knows what I ate.

蠶兒在夜裏吃桑葉，我的心

Nights, silkworms grazed mulberry leaves,

在寅時吃下什麼

my heart through the hours of

才吐出陽光下的第一縷絲

Yin

browsing what it could.

我開口說話——

At dawn I spit my first silk threads.

混沌裂開的疼痛永遠留在記憶中

神性的沉默再也回不到嘴唇上：

Through the pain of the torn primordial,

說，拼命說……

I opened my mouth,

沒有別的辦法驅趕恐懼

divine silence fleeing my lips forever:

saying, desperately saying.

滔滔不絕的話語

How else to drive back fear.

帶著憤怒，拋向廉價的耳朵

滔滔不絕的話語

Wrath spills out with eloquence,

帶著歎息，落向空無——

splashed toward common ears,

在所有的聽眾後面，我尋找

sigh-sleek words

那唯一的聽眾……

slipping toward emptiness.

Among all who listen

I speak to only one.