首先

first

我对我那些话下手

i went for my words

那些“我不能”“我不会”“我不够好”

the i can'ts. i won'ts. i am not good enoughs.

我把它们排成一列，全部击毙

i lined them up and shot them dead

然后来收拾我的思想

then i went for my thoughts

它们无形又无处不在

invisible and everywhere

没有时间一一收集

there was no time to gather them one by one

我只能把它们冲洗掉

i had to wash them out

我用自己的头发织了一块亚麻布

i wove a linen cloth out of my hair

浸在一碗薄荷与柠檬水中

soaked it in a bowl of mint and lemon water

含在嘴里

carried it in my mouth as i climbed

顺着辫子向上攀爬

up my braid to the back of my head

抵达后脑

down on my knees i began to wipe my mind clean

我跪下

it took twenty-one days

开始擦拭我的大脑

my knees bruised but

整整二十一天

i did not care

膝盖淤青

i was not given the breath

但我不在乎

in my lungs to choke it out

我既然被赐予肺里这口呼吸

i would scrub the self-hate off the bone

就要把那些东西统统呛出去

till it exposed love

我要把自我厌恶

从骨头上刷洗干净

- self-love

直到露出爱

——自爱