naked along the side of the house,

早上八点，在房子一边

8 a.m., spreading sesame seed oil

我赤条条朝自己身上抹

over my body, Jesus, have I come

芝麻油。耶稣，为什么我会落得

to this?

如此地步？

I once battled in dark alleys for a

我曾在漆黑的巷道搏斗，为了

laugh.

大笑。

now I'm not laughing.

现在，我笑不起来。

I splash myself with oil and wonder,

我拍溅着芝麻油感到不可思议

how many years do you want?

你还想要我多少年？

how many days?

多少天？

my blood is soiled and a dark

我的血已被玷污，一个

angel sits in my brain.

黑天使坐在我的大脑中。

things are made of something and

万物总源于有而

go to nothing.

归于无。

I understand the fall of cities, of

我明白堕落的城市，堕落的

nations.

国家。

a small plane passes overhead.

一架小飞机从头顶飞过。

I look upward as if it made sense to

我向上望，仿佛值得

look upward.

向上望。

it's true, the sky has rotted:

这是真的，天空已经腐烂

it won't be long for any of

它不会为我们任何人而

us.

长久。