即使现在

Even now,

数十年以后

decades after,

我仍用冷水洗睑

I wash my face with cold water –

并非什么修养不修养

Not for discipline,

也非保留记忆

nor memory,

更非想以清凉苏醒某些打击

nor the icy, awakening slap,

不过是练习

but to practice

选取

choosing

从不必要变成必须

to make the unwanted wanted.