Even now,

即使现在

decades after,

数十年以后

I wash my face with cold water –

我仍用冷水洗睑

Not for discipline,

并非什么修养不修养

nor memory,

也非保留记忆

nor the icy, awakening slap,

更非想以清凉苏醒某些打击

but to practice

不过是练习

choosing

选取

to make the unwanted wanted.

从不必要变成必须